I MISS YOU DADDY!!
When I was tinkering about the cabinets in our room since I had nothing else to do, I stumbled upon a letter I wrote to my father when I was 8 years old. We always sent letters(hindi pa uso text at call noon). He work abroad kasi. The word "I love you" and "I miss you" and "Uwi ka na daddy, pinapalo ako ni mommy" yan madalas ko mabasa sa mga letters ko para sa daddy ko. And the very memorable letter I found is the letter he sent when he was in Dubai.. It was the very last letter I received from my dad before he died :(.
You know what it hurts now?, the fact that my dad din't live long enough for him to even see that I fulfilled my promises. I HATE IT! I just miss him so much. I would miss him in every event of my life. My college graduation. My first job. My first paycheck. My first house. My first car. My Wedding. And not only that, he'd miss even the little things. I miss him always scolding me at night for doing all my shitty projects. I miss him letting me play the guitar and sing for him(the songs Pangako Sayo & Heaven Knows). I'd miss him playing jokes on my brother. I miss when picking me up in school. I miss him when I'm drinking and coming home late then he'll not saying anything, then the next day won't give my allowance. I miss him waking me up in the morning and offering me breakfast. I miss when he give me chocolates and bags. I miss going to church with him then eat to different restaurant everyweek.
In my 18 years of living.. I only spent 8 years with him and the 10 years is away from my daddy.
after he died My mom said "Isipin na lang natin lahat na nasa abroad sya, ang pagkakaiba lang walang nang balikan pa.".
And it's the reality. We don't own our life. In any moment we can die.
I love you so much Dad.
(The only picture with my dad)
You know what it hurts now?, the fact that my dad din't live long enough for him to even see that I fulfilled my promises. I HATE IT! I just miss him so much. I would miss him in every event of my life. My college graduation. My first job. My first paycheck. My first house. My first car. My Wedding. And not only that, he'd miss even the little things. I miss him always scolding me at night for doing all my shitty projects. I miss him letting me play the guitar and sing for him(the songs Pangako Sayo & Heaven Knows). I'd miss him playing jokes on my brother. I miss when picking me up in school. I miss him when I'm drinking and coming home late then he'll not saying anything, then the next day won't give my allowance. I miss him waking me up in the morning and offering me breakfast. I miss when he give me chocolates and bags. I miss going to church with him then eat to different restaurant everyweek.
I MISS YOU DADDY!
Come home please.. I need you... What if I have problems with my job, my finances? Hai... Wish you didn't go... I wish when I look back from this screen, I'd see you watching TV or reading book while eating Wheat bread or just back at me and hug me :(...In my 18 years of living.. I only spent 8 years with him and the 10 years is away from my daddy.
after he died My mom said "Isipin na lang natin lahat na nasa abroad sya, ang pagkakaiba lang walang nang balikan pa.".
And it's the reality. We don't own our life. In any moment we can die.
I love you so much Dad.
(The only picture with my dad)
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